Rejoice in this DIVINE Romance

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God does not need us to confess our sins in order to be with us, accept us and love us. He never leaves us or turns away. The consequences of sin are to our own expense. Sin fills us with regret, shame, and guilt, which inhibits us from seeing, hearing and feeling God’s presence. Sin alters our perception of the world and fill us with lies. Confession is a blessing to man so we may free ourselves of the burden of sin and feel as if we are worthy to know God. Forgiveness is the vehicle for relationship. God has always been waiting for us to accept Him into our hearts. Living in harmony with Jesus does not wait until after death. Ironically, Jesus spent most of his time with sinners and had the most friction with the “holy people”. The thought that God cannot look upon sin is a lie to keep us away from embracing His love and grace.

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“You were found in Jesus before you were ever lost in Adam.” 

-Paul Young

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This evening, one of our leaders shared his powerful testimony encompassing faith, provision and blessings. He then instructed us to randomly select from a small pile of papers, numbered 1-9. Our only task was to write on the paper any words, visions or scriptures we received. He played worship music and I immediately received the words, “true love”. My mind then flooded with the verse Romans 6:15… I quickly flipped through my bible and read,

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“Well then, since God’s grace has set us free from the law, does that mean we can go on sinning? Of course not! Don’t you realize that you become the slave of whatever you choose to obey? You can be a slave to sin, which leads to death, or you can choose to obey God, which leads to righteous living. Thank God!”

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It became very apparent to me that the numbers on our papers represented individuals in the group and I had picked my own number, which meant I was praying for myself. When time was up, we went around and shared which number we had and our leader revealed which person that number represented. As we went around, revealing and sharing, my stomach dropped and my heart pounded harder and harder as everyone’s name was being said, except for mine. Sure enough, it came down to myself and Colleen. When the leader asked Colleen which number she had, of course, it was her own, which solidified that I was holding mine.

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“Jesus didn’t sin because He didn’t want to become less human.”

-Paul Young

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Sin wants to be hidden and remain in the dark. When we reveal our sins, the devil trembles because he knows he does not own us. I am not a slave to sin and I refuse to keep living in it. I have struggled for nearly 3 years with an eating disorder. Although I have come leaps and bounds, it is something that still haunts me. Before tonight, I did not realize that I was hurting God by not loving myself. I felt as if it was at my own expense and I didn’t care if I was suffering. But, tonight Jesus made it clear to me that mistreating myself is a sin that He does not take lightly. My guilt and shame separates us and that is not something I am willing to risk. God thinks that I am beautiful and wants me to see myself as He sees me. It is my hope, that by sharing this I can open the door for conversation to anyone who is struggling. You are not alone and we can conquer this together. I encourage anyone to reach out via my contact tab at the top of my blog. I want this blog to be a safe place. As your fellow sister, I am here for you.<3

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  1. Is the Canadian Thanksgiving Monday. And you know what as a Canadian I can write about how great the holiday is but where is the fun in that? I have a challenge for you if you’re up for the task. How about you write a blog about things you’re thankful for address it to someone in Canada write it from an American perspective. Are you up for the task?

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  2. Darling Alexandra I enjoy your posts and look forward to each one.
    Sunny California seems to have stolen your heart. You are on a great adventure my dear…good for you. Please take good care of yourself dear.
    You are loved by many people. Your Grams

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    1. ALEXxCARTER says:

      Aw I love you Grandma!! You’re the best and I am counting down the days until I see you 🙂

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